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[lavendertook]

I am so scared. And such a fuck up. But I'm going to get this thing done tonight, and then I'll be a fuck up with a finished paper. I don't know how I got into this place where doing something that shouldn't be that hard has become that hard--nah, I do know how I got here. I just gotta get thru this. And onto the next step. And become a useful person who can actually be there for someone else again. Wish me luck.

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Yeah. It's one of those things where you're in a funk because you can't get what you got to do done, and you can't get what you got to do done because you're in a funk. And I've been in funk for a while, and I've had to get this thing done for longer. And it may be futile too, because I'm past my deadline for getting to ABD status and getting to go on to do a dissertation without getting kicked out of the program depends on it, but I'm trying to try anyway--once I finish whiiiiiining about it, that is.

I'm sorry you're in a similar position, but you're taking time to inform me of your solidarity in this icky place, does cheer me. Any advice?

Thank you. And same to you!