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[lavendertook]

I am so scared. And such a fuck up. But I'm going to get this thing done tonight, and then I'll be a fuck up with a finished paper. I don't know how I got into this place where doing something that shouldn't be that hard has become that hard--nah, I do know how I got here. I just gotta get thru this. And onto the next step. And become a useful person who can actually be there for someone else again. Wish me luck.

Comments

LUCK!

[spookystoy.livejournal.com]

Hurray for finished papers! But you are *not* a fuck-up. This paper is how many pages long?

Re: Thank you!

[lavendertook.livejournal.com]

Thank you--I'm trying not to be. It only has to be 15-20 stupid pages. It's just that I've over researched it over the past year I've been working on it--I've cut 110 pages of notes down to 26 finally--now I got to add in the critical material and keep culling and make it readable. It's an incomplete from a course I've taken a few years ago now and has tons of weight of performance anxiety on it--which is why I'm past my deadline and going nuts and all that. I don't think I have the good will of the professor I need to hand it in to. /-: I'll finish whining soon.