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In The Return of Shadow, Part 1 of The History of The Lord of the Rings Christopher Tolkien transcribes his father's notes as follows:

Too many hobbits. Also Bingo Bolger-Baggins a bad name. Let Bingo=Frodo, a son of Primula Brandybuck but of father Drogo Baggins (Bilbo's first cousin). So Frodo ( =Bingo) is Bilbo's first cousin once removed both on Took side and on Baggins. Also he has as proper name Baggins.

[Frodo struck out] No--I am too used to Bingo.

Frodo [i.e. Took] and Odo are in the know and see Bingo off at gate after the Party . . . But Frodo says goodbye at Bucklebury. Only Merry and Bingo ride on into exile - because Merry insists. Bingo originally intended to go alone.

Then Christopher Tolkien adds:

All of this from 'No - I am now too used to Bingo', was struck out in pencil, and at the same time my father wrote 'Sam Gamgee' in the margin, and to 'Bingo originally intended to go alone' he added 'with Sam'. It may be that this is where he first set down Sam Gamgee's name. (221)

You have just been reading a moment in Bingo history. Good night.

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*looks deeply into his eyes*

I'm sorry again, love. Nor am I saying that my woes could possibly compare to yours, or my brothers. They certainly don't compare to what you went through. I just feel guilty about it . . . and I suppose, worthless creature that I am, I feel terribly sorry for myself about that guilt too, when you and my brother went through all the pain.

*shakes his head* No, I wasn't what was needed.*shakes head again* I don't think Gandalf and Bilbo thought I could have destroyed the Ring though, love. *smiles sadly to his encouragement* I'm not sure of passion is quite the right word for me there, a'maelamin. I think the term you want is . . . violent. I was too violent a-and head strong not to have claimed the Ring for my own, love. Not like you. And I would have tried to scour the Shire ~~without UN backing~~ single-handedly, and led the way for hobbits to become the very things they were fighting against. Not like you at all. I-I hope I've gotten a little better on that account through the years. *looks down at his hands*

Date: 2003-03-24 10:23 pm (UTC)

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Please...please, stop apologizing. ~soft sigh~ And I'm not trying to compare who's woes are greater. Oh, a'maelamin... ~pulls him into his arms~ You are no worthless creature! ~nuzzles his temple and ear~ Do not feel guilty for what was not your choice... but do not judge yourself for that guilt either. We all have such cobwebs in our lives.

Well, I think you could have. And if you met my old Bilbo, I'm sure he'd have faith in you too. ~soft sigh, nuzzles Bingo's temple~ I claimed it in the end, dear one. No Frodo is a saint... the temptation was and is there. And at the final moment... in a fling of determination as Sam kept Gollum at bay...I found my way to the brink, and I broke. I claimed the Ring as my own.
~kisses his cheek~ Perhaps Tolkien knew that, but it is not a failure on your part! You just were not tailored to that final role, a'maelamin, but I do not see that as your flaw. You are a very important hobbit now, in your work... you've been very brave in your life, and I love you. And yes, I meant to say passion before. It is passion that fuels that 'violence', and it's passion that fuels your success in what you do now for Middle Earth. It's that passion that has been redirected, and helped you move a way from a more violent youth.

Date: 2003-03-24 10:44 pm (UTC)

*is pulled into his arms and wraps his own around Iorhael's waist in turn* Alright, a'maelamin. *closes his eyes against the tears, and smiles slightly at his lover's soothing* I know. I do know. Thank you.

*smiles gratefully and kisses under his chin* No, no I know you did--there's no one who could have willingly thrown it in by themselves. But the important thing is you got it far enough before you did claim it, and all the choices of the heart you made before then gave you the help you needed from others to get the job finished. So don't diminsh your accomplishment, a'maelamin.

*smiles fondly* And I am lucky to have gained your love, my dear friend. And as I love you, I have become more satisfied with the path that lead me to you. *nuzzles his neck and shoulder then draws back to look at him and nod* Thank you for putting such faith in me Iorhael. Thank you, a'maelamin.

Date: 2003-03-24 10:50 pm (UTC)

~squeezes him and rubs his shoulders and arms. Smiles gently when Bingo draws back to look at him~ There is no need to thank me, a'maelamin. For any of what I have said, because there is no need to thank the truth. ~kisses him softly~ My dearest hobbit, how I love you.

Date: 2003-03-25 11:19 am (UTC)

*retunrs the kiss tenderly* Amin mela le, Iorhaelamin, amin mela le.

*presses his lips to Iorhael's once more for a lingering kiss and murmurs* I am becoming more satisfied day by day with the path I have taken, melindo, since it is the one that lead to you.