Whining and Venting

[lavendertook]

I haven't heard a damn thing yet from my prof about that paper I handed in two weeks ago, not even an acknowledgment of my emails, and it's driving me batty!!!! I do want to work on revising it for submitting to a journal, but if it doesn't meet academic approval then I can forget it. So I really hope to hear from the other prof soon, the Tolkien scholar, but I'm not her student and she's got other things to tend to first so I don't want to pressure her.

I took off the day from work today to get this second damn paper done, even though it took being told what a crappy worker I am by my supervisor to get the day off--and I am a crappy worker part of the time--but this was not the time to berate me. Sucks.)-:

OK, so I recovered from that now, and I'm gonna write. And it will be done this week. And bureaucratic paper work will be done. And my life will change one way or another--and that's a good thing, right? I'll either be working slowly on a dissertation or start seriously drawing again--one or the other (and hopefully find a new job with health benefits first--so scary in this current climate.) And I can start reconnecting with my old friends again. And send out cards. And go out and make some local friends. And keep playing with my puppets and the online friends I've been so lucky to make.

But now just got to focus on this damn overly verbose postcolonial theory stuff and the film "Fire". Yeah. So back to it. I.can.do.this. Yeah.

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[lavendertook.livejournal.com]

Understood--thanks. The profs here vary--some are excellent about a week turnaround, many are not. It's just very frustrating because as a TA I felt so very pressured to have a quick turnaround on papers to my students to the detriment of my own work, whereas many of the profs feel no such obligation to their students, including grad students, who really do need to be made a priority. But, hey, that's not going to happen. The double standards in academia are maddening.

My mother is a public school sub--it's a very thankless and underpaid job, but I know she plays a role that makes a difference for some of the kids that see her year after year in a way that the teachers that just have them in class for one year do not.

That is a goood combo--thank you.(-:(-: