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I'm feeling lonely and unmotivated even though I have so much to do. All I really want to do these days when home is to sit and read novels beside purring cats. I don't give myself enough permission to just do that. Tuxie is sleeping next to me--he's gotten to be my constant snoozy lefthand fuzzy attachment whenever I sit the past year since Saki died, and I am lucky to have him and appreciate what good company he is. He and Moo are very good and easy companions. Except I worry because they sleep too much even for cats and I worry if I should be doing more to try to get them a little more active. It's been a couple of years since either climbed the cat trees at all and they jump up on very little. But my perceptions of how active cats should be may be skewed by having grown up with siamese cats who tend to be a little more active, and these guys are 10 and 11 years old. Do ya'll worry about your pet parenting? Gotta learn to let go of what I can't control and solve (snoozy cats gonna snooze), and be easy on me and give me some love.
I cancelled going to a scifi meet up luncheon in DC this afternoon due to the excessive heat today and expensive parking. And I have so much clean up to do around the house--the more I get done the happier I will feel so I'm going to concentrate on that. One pile at a time. Go through papers. Throw things out--make my habitat something I can feel good in--and when I accomplish that, get back to making and studying and creating. I feel so boring.
July and August so far have been mega-hot, which is extra hard because of the anti-cancer med I'm on and will be for 2 more years, then I hope will be better--yes. And it's been a time filled with Trumphobia, which has felt like the nightmare where you are running but are getting slower and slower as if you're going through molasses and IT's getting closer--I know so many of us are sharing the same nightmare feeling. But that has been easing up the past weeks with the polls. Nate Silver's blog is my Happy Place. It's been a tough month on so many of my friends.
I can't wait until late September when walks will become a joy again. Just a couple more weeks. Spring and autumn, those are my seasons.
I had the yearly thyroid ultrasound on Thursday, and will see the endocrinologist in 2 weeks with hopes that my thyroid nodules have not grown. We've been monitoring this for 2 years and so far so good. Doctors visits make me nervous since the breast precancer diagnosis--I hope I can go back to them being routine sooner than later. My spirits are more down than up, but this is a year of grief and recovery from health problems, trauma, and family losses. Next year will be better, right?
I saw my first monarch butterfly of the season yesterday by the lake. I went back last night and looked up my Verid entries. Remember Verid the monarch and the adventures she took me on? If you didn't know me in 2012, you might like these pics and stories. I still have good caterpillar and chrysalis pics of her I never uploaded. I will have to download them from the back up drive sometime and post.
I listen to NPR radio a lot. The weekend NPR shows that used to delight or interest me make me more often anxious the last couple of years. Is it me (a glass of water makes you anxious, child), or the stories they are telling? Anyone else having this problem? Will talk about the couple of movies and books I've enjoyed lately in another post.
OK, off to get Things Done. I hope this weekend is treating you all well. *hugs my flist*
I cancelled going to a scifi meet up luncheon in DC this afternoon due to the excessive heat today and expensive parking. And I have so much clean up to do around the house--the more I get done the happier I will feel so I'm going to concentrate on that. One pile at a time. Go through papers. Throw things out--make my habitat something I can feel good in--and when I accomplish that, get back to making and studying and creating. I feel so boring.
July and August so far have been mega-hot, which is extra hard because of the anti-cancer med I'm on and will be for 2 more years, then I hope will be better--yes. And it's been a time filled with Trumphobia, which has felt like the nightmare where you are running but are getting slower and slower as if you're going through molasses and IT's getting closer--I know so many of us are sharing the same nightmare feeling. But that has been easing up the past weeks with the polls. Nate Silver's blog is my Happy Place. It's been a tough month on so many of my friends.
I can't wait until late September when walks will become a joy again. Just a couple more weeks. Spring and autumn, those are my seasons.
I had the yearly thyroid ultrasound on Thursday, and will see the endocrinologist in 2 weeks with hopes that my thyroid nodules have not grown. We've been monitoring this for 2 years and so far so good. Doctors visits make me nervous since the breast precancer diagnosis--I hope I can go back to them being routine sooner than later. My spirits are more down than up, but this is a year of grief and recovery from health problems, trauma, and family losses. Next year will be better, right?
I saw my first monarch butterfly of the season yesterday by the lake. I went back last night and looked up my Verid entries. Remember Verid the monarch and the adventures she took me on? If you didn't know me in 2012, you might like these pics and stories. I still have good caterpillar and chrysalis pics of her I never uploaded. I will have to download them from the back up drive sometime and post.
I listen to NPR radio a lot. The weekend NPR shows that used to delight or interest me make me more often anxious the last couple of years. Is it me (a glass of water makes you anxious, child), or the stories they are telling? Anyone else having this problem? Will talk about the couple of movies and books I've enjoyed lately in another post.
OK, off to get Things Done. I hope this weekend is treating you all well. *hugs my flist*
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i am also very anxious with the news and can only really digest any of it in written form, not NPR or anything visual. :/
my perception of cat energy is probably skewed because i have cats who are just coming out of adolescence and i have one who is never. tired. of. playing. ever. like, i can never ever play with her enough? although she will gladly accept snuggles (if she is not in attack play mode). so. <3
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Yay on playful kitties! Though the pressure to play with them MORE is annoying. Moo doesn't want to play more, but she wants to be drummed on more, and that tires me out fast. Saki got a little quieter in her middle years, but her hyperthyroidism made her a little more active again in her later years. It's an interesting condition. Still she was more active than these guys in her quiet years. <3
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::cleans ALL the things::
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That is a loooong job. <3
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It is definitely okay to read and purr and be comfy sometimes.
Good luck with things.
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But, yeah, reading and purring and kitty companionship are really welcome, no matter the season.
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They are good cats. <3
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It's mega-hot here, too, and draining all the energy and motivation out of things. Our cooler 'autumn' won't be until November, sadly! I'll enjoy September/October coolness vicariously through your autumn posts. :)
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I'm sorry it's mega hot there too--you had such a hot spring as well. I hope Pippin is dealing OK with it.
Yeah, the heat is definitely adding a huge blanket of lethargy on top of all else even though I'm inside in the ac.
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It's a shame that you had to cancel going to your met up, but your extreme heat would put me off, too. It's not been quite as hot here as it has been by you, but still, more 90 degree days this summer than we've had in a while.
2016 is turning out to be a quite shitty year for a lot of folks. I really, really hope next year is a better one for everybody.
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Thank you! It's always a few degrees hotter in DC than it is here in the well treed burbs, so I didn't want to deal with that or chance taking my car out there. We've had more 90 degree days too--it's been a tougher summer than the last few and tough to deal with my broken internal thermostat.
I hope the same as well. Or that we'll all get better at rolling with the punches.
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Thank you for the advice to help me not feel bad if I get little done. And you've been through so much this year I am glad to hear you put a premium on taking it easy. Enjoy the Olympics! I've watched some vids of the women's gymnastics--amazing stuff.
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I think you just have to give in to it as much as you can and do as much or as little as your body and health will allow.
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Thank you--I will try to remember that the weather is putting a bigger trial on things on top of the internal stuff I'm dealing with even indoors.
I hope when the weather gives us a break again there will be a weekend when you feel up to me coming out and taking you to a Braughers brunch.
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I'm sorry things are so low, it seems to be catching, doesn't it. *hugs and fans*
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Thank you, sweetie. We can sit and companionably stare vacantly together. *hugs you*
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I agree with Baranduin about NPR. Can't bear to listen to it.
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As I said to B: I think a lot of the shows can be pretentious--like the Ted talks and Radio lab that try to present themselves as cutting edge, produced by middle-aged white guys who want you to tell them that their music collections are rad. But I can't find another radio news source that doesn't irritate me more. During the week I keep the classical NPR station on at home because it helps calm me--maybe I should forego the NPR talk shows and keep it on all weekend too.
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I constantly worry about my pet parenting. You are definitely not alone.
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Thank you--and you are the best pet parent and have very lucky doggies, so that make me feel in very good company.
How is it going with your dizzy spells and headaches, btw? Hoping the best for you!
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snuggle up to an understanding kitteh and dream of lovely things.....
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I hope we all get some cool soon and back to the Shire.
Kitties certianly do help.
*hugs*
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Today I am so happy to be sitting inside my own home on my couch with purry furries nearby, just listening to the rain and doing nothing! School starts tomorrow so I'm all about keeping things chill tonight.
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(2) Everything makes me anxious too, and I have to be very careful what I watch/listen to. My parents watch the news sometimes and it makes me very nervous; I was a wreck over an interview they had on TWICE last night. :(
(3) I hope medical stuff can go back to routine ASAP for you, and I will be praying for all to be well. <3
*hugs snugs loves*
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