Oh, how painful. I am sorry that I had been away from DW so I missed the whole crisis and this. I am sorry, so very sorry, for your loss. Reading how devastated this has left you seems to have given me permission to sob anew over my own heart kitty, Kia, who died five years ago. Not that I don't love the rest of them, but losing her was worse than any before- or since.

Still, every time I mourn her, it gets a little easier. I hope you can find comfort in knowing you did absolutely the very best you possibly could for your girl, while still letting her be her own special, stubborn self. I'm wishing you strength, and peace. Rest in peace, Saki the Beloved.