Peaceful Leave Taking

[lavendertook]

My mom died tonight.

I called the hospice unit right before getting ready to go to bed to ask the nurse how Mom was doing and to ask her to give my mom my love, as I've been doing these past several nights. And as the receptionist put me on hold while the nurse was with my mom, Mom took her last breath.

I saw her again last Saturday with my brother, but she did not open her eyes or speak and it is anyone's guess if she could still hear then, but I talked to her all while I was there and swabbed her lips. She had been sleeping through since Thursday night last, and on pain meds, and passed on so peacefully tonight after 14 years of battling cancer and chemo.

The phone--it was such a fraught thing with us. I'm very grateful I heard her call to share love with me at the very last.

Comments

[lavendertook.livejournal.com]

No, honey--it wasn't hold hell--the opposite. Though not knowing what it was I was ready to hang up and call again--I'm so glad I didn't. But I wouldn't for the world want that nurse to have left my mom's side as she died. The thing is, I was there with her while holding--she was saying goodbye to me. It didn't matter that we were 150 miles away. I couldn't be put on the phone with her--we couldn't vocally share with each other at that point--but she waited for me to call, and it makes me feel loved and that she felt me loving her. *snugs*

[baranduin.livejournal.com]

I was hoping it was just this way for you! How magical. I'll tell you about what happened right after my dad passed when I see you :-)

[lavendertook.livejournal.com]

I so look forward to hearing it, my friend. (-: