Peaceful Leave Taking

[lavendertook]

My mom died tonight.

I called the hospice unit right before getting ready to go to bed to ask the nurse how Mom was doing and to ask her to give my mom my love, as I've been doing these past several nights. And as the receptionist put me on hold while the nurse was with my mom, Mom took her last breath.

I saw her again last Saturday with my brother, but she did not open her eyes or speak and it is anyone's guess if she could still hear then, but I talked to her all while I was there and swabbed her lips. She had been sleeping through since Thursday night last, and on pain meds, and passed on so peacefully tonight after 14 years of battling cancer and chemo.

The phone--it was such a fraught thing with us. I'm very grateful I heard her call to share love with me at the very last.

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[hanarobi.livejournal.com]

Lora just let me know. Your post has such a sense of peace and closure. You and your brother will be in my thoughts.

My condolences on the loss of your mother.

*hugs*

[lavendertook.livejournal.com]

And when my work buddy told me a couple of weeks ago to do what I needed to do to get closure in our relationship, I told her, "Closure is for fiction. It is what it is."

I was wrong. It will undoubtedly get more complicated again later because that's life--it's just the life I'm sharing with her now as long as I live is different in a way I couldn't have known.

Thank you. *hugs*