lavendertook: (saki smiling)
( Sep. 4th, 2017 11:33 pm)
A very Happy Birthday to [personal profile] ladyjax today and to [personal profile] benedict tomorrow!!!


This would have been Saki's 19th birthday/coming home day. I was so lucky to have such a clown and sweetheart in my life for 16 years--many were hard years that I am grateful for because she was in them for the brightest moments.

Saki in a Bag 7-13

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I couldn't do a memorial post to Carrie Fisher earlier this week due to LJ shenanigans and I'm still feeling the need, so here it is. I'm just so sad to see her go so young with so much left to write and act and enjoy. Besides looking forward to seeing her play General Leia some more, and I know we already have her filmed for the next film, I read The Guardian newspaper and was looking forward to seeing her agony aunt column. Looking through pics of her, it really looked like she was becoming more and more comfortable with herself over the last few years and I wish she got to enjoy more of the fruits of her long, hard slog through mental illness to come into her own.

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I came to take for granted what her iconic role as Princess Leia meant to me back when I was 15, as for so many young women of my generation.

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( Nov. 14th, 2016 09:56 pm)
I'm really sad about the untimely passing of Gwen Ifill. Her voice was part of the soundtrack for my maturing political awareness. What a hard week to pass on, but probably a hastener for letting go. Safe passage and rest in peace.



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Light Beyond the Gate. Yesterday's sunset by the lake before the moonrise.

I watched the President's press conference, and his looking like he was controlling himself from laughing at how unprepared Trump is was kind of heartening, his "just wait--he wont' know what hit him" look. I really hope infighting will render him and his cabinet ineffectual in a way that lessons the harm they will try to enact. Hope is all we have.
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( Nov. 4th, 2016 09:49 pm)
So here's 2 of the pics I took this evening right before sunset. Which do you like better--the first one with the bit of water and sky or the closer one below? I can't decide.

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( Nov. 4th, 2016 09:49 pm)
So here's 2 of the pics I took this evening right before sunset. Which do you like better--the first one with the bit of water and sky or the closer one below? I can't decide.

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[livejournal.com profile] mews1945's spirit flew away on the high winds heralding in the autumn cold today, in a wave of the first brightly colored leaves, so attuned to the seasons as she was. I wish it weren't today and she was here longer. I wish I could have taken her to Braughers again. Safe passage, dear friend.

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I can't upload some of the older pics I'd like to include, so this one will have to do for now. I love this pic of her focusing with hobbity attention on her rare ice cream treat when we saw her this spring, such a joy it was to be there with her.

Namarie, sweetie.

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[livejournal.com profile] mews1945's spirit flew away on the high winds heralding in the autumn cold today, in a wave of the first brightly colored leaves, so attuned to the seasons as she was. I wish it weren't today and she was here longer. I wish I could have taken her to Braughers again. Safe passage, dear friend.

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I can't upload some of the older pics I'd like to include, so this one will have to do for now. I love this pic of her focusing with hobbity attention on her rare ice cream treat when we saw her this spring, such a joy it was to be there with her.

Namarie, sweetie.
lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Oct. 4th, 2016 09:07 pm)
I lost my Saki a year ago tonight. No, it's not so sharp anymore--she belongs to the past now. I so miss her bright sparkle in my life, but I'm so grateful she made it to 17 and I had 16 good years with her.

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I think this is my favorite pic of her: Smiling Saki Owning her Mouse and Me.

I've uploaded below a 4 pic pre-digital fight sequence with her best sparring partner, her big sis Milli, who left several years before her. Maybe they are having fun sparring even now in a sunny corner in Primroses:

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Oct. 4th, 2016 09:07 pm)
I lost my Saki a year ago tonight. No, it's not so sharp anymore--she belongs to the past now. I so miss her bright sparkle in my life, but I'm so grateful she made it to 17 and I had 16 good years with her.

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I think this is my favorite pic of her: Smiling Saki Owning her Mouse and Me.

I've uploaded below a 4 pic pre-digital fight sequence with her best sparring partner, her big sis Milli, who left several years before her. Maybe they are having fun sparring even now in a sunny corner in Primroses:

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Saki died 11 months ago tonight. Today would have been her 18th birthday, and 18th anniversary of her coming home with me from the PG County Shelter. She would have been old enough to vote in November. You bet she would have voted for Hillary.


Did she not look like a stuffed toy siamese cat in her middle years, especially?

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Saki died 11 months ago tonight. Today would have been her 18th birthday, and 18th anniversary of her coming home with me from the PG County Shelter. She would have been old enough to vote in November. You bet she would have voted for Hillary.


Did she not look like a stuffed toy siamese cat in her middle years, especially?

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I've scanned in a few more pics of young Saki. Ten months without her. So very missed.

Saki was a wide-eyed girl. She totally had a koala bear nose until her face blended more in her last years, increasing her beauty. I loved how her paws had a shimmery frosted white outline and varied between cool gray and warm brown--so lovely. Less poetically I'd sometimes describe her basic point color as dryer lint. Her peachy-orange patches got a little more vivid in her last years.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Jul. 4th, 2016 08:45 pm)
I scanned in a few more "Saki: The Early Days" pre-digital pics tonight, when she was just a tiny noodle. I sure miss that little girl. Sweet Tuxie, who loved his Saki (albeit often in a dysfunctional way), spent several minutes this evening staring at the foot rest where Saki often slept like he was seeing her there. Makes one wonder.


Making herself pretzel comfortable. Who needs yoga pants? Not Saki.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Jul. 4th, 2016 08:45 pm)
I scanned in a few more "Saki: The Early Days" pre-digital pics tonight, when she was just a tiny noodle. I sure miss that little girl. Sweet Tuxie, who loved his Saki (albeit often in a dysfunctional way), spent several minutes this evening staring at the foot rest where Saki often slept like he was seeing her there. Makes one wonder.


Making herself pretzel comfortable. Who needs yoga pants? Not Saki.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Jun. 4th, 2016 10:59 pm)
Just missing a certain adorable little girl.

Shiny-eyed Saki Took
Pics from 9 years ago when we first moved into my current apartment.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Jun. 4th, 2016 10:59 pm)
Just missing a certain adorable little girl.

Shiny-eyed Saki Took
Pics from 9 years ago when we first moved into my current apartment.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( May. 4th, 2016 10:17 pm)
Seven months now, and I'm missing my Saki so much. I just see her everywhere--just expecting her to walk up with tail held high, eyes meeting mine, and making greeting chirps.

I promised [personal profile] mews1945 some pics of Saki fetching. So here she is bringing back a cough drop in its wrapper that I threw for her. She's almost 3 here, when we were living in the old efficiency. I'm so glad she only spent half her life there and I was able to move us to this one bedroom with more views.



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lavendertook: (lavender candle)
( Apr. 25th, 2016 08:54 pm)
Today would have been my Mom's 83rd birthday.



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lavendertook: (lavender candle)
( Apr. 25th, 2016 08:54 pm)
Today would have been my Mom's 83rd birthday.

Tonight is 6 months without Saki. Here are some of my first pics of her when I brought her home from the county shelter. Pre-digital pics. I'm still figuring out how to use a new Canon printer/scanner I got this weekend, that is way more complicated to figure out than it should be.


Basket full of love.


Comfortable on the sofa.


Sitting pretty in the bathroom window with her big wild eyes. She was a cute little kitty, but she just got more beautiful as she aged and became more steeped in love.

I miss you so much, little girl.

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Tonight is 6 months without Saki. Here are some of my first pics of her when I brought her home from the county shelter. Pre-digital pics. I'm still figuring out how to use a new Canon printer/scanner I got this weekend, that is way more complicated to figure out than it should be.


Basket full of love.


Comfortable on the sofa.


Sitting pretty in the bathroom window with her big wild eyes. She was a cute little kitty, but she just got more beautiful as she aged and became more steeped in love.

I miss you so much, little girl.
lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Mar. 4th, 2016 10:49 pm)
Five months ago, there was a Saki. I miss you, little girl. Also posted at http://lavendertook.dreamwidth.org/193253.html with comment count unavailablecomments
lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Mar. 4th, 2016 10:49 pm)
Five months ago, there was a Saki. I miss you, little girl.
lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Dec. 4th, 2015 06:19 pm)
Today is 2 months since I lost Saki. I'm doing a much better job this month of focusing on being grateful for the 16 years I had in the company of that magnificent cat-being than on the sadness of her ending. There are days, and times, but it's not as raw as last month. I am so grateful for the support from my flist friends who held me up during the worst of it. I couldn't get through without you. Thank you. (((((((FLIST)))))

Below is another favorite pic, this of Herself with a wool catnip-filled mouse an old friend made and sent for her. She tended to love her newest toy and her newest bed most, but her fondness for this mouse lasted many years and it stayed in her latest beds.

It's also 9 years today since my dad died--tomorrow would have been his 88th birthday. The 15th will be 5 months since Mom died. He and Mom have 4 siameses tucked around them, but maybe Saki is visiting with them tonight, too.

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Is that a smiling kitten cat, or is that a smiling kitten cat? So fluffy sweet and soft, but look at the strength in that possessive paw. THIS MOUSE. IS MINE. GO ME! LOVE U.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Dec. 4th, 2015 06:19 pm)
Today is 2 months since I lost Saki. I'm doing a much better job this month of focusing on being grateful for the 16 years I had in the company of that magnificent cat-being than on the sadness of her ending. There are days, and times, but it's not as raw as last month. I am so grateful for the support from my flist friends who held me up during the worst of it. I couldn't get through without you. Thank you. (((((((FLIST)))))

Below is another favorite pic, this of Herself with a wool catnip-filled mouse an old friend made and sent for her. She tended to love her newest toy and her newest bed most, but her fondness for this mouse lasted many years and it stayed in her latest beds.

It's also 9 years today since my dad died--tomorrow would have been his 88th birthday. The 15th will be 5 months since Mom died. He and Mom have 4 siameses tucked around them, but maybe Saki is visiting with them tonight, too.

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Is that a smiling kitten cat, or is that a smiling kitten cat? So fluffy sweet and soft, but look at the strength in that possessive paw. THIS MOUSE. IS MINE. GO ME! LOVE U.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Nov. 25th, 2015 07:13 pm)
Here is one of my favorite pics--Saki rolling and mugging on her new blankie made by [personal profile] claudia603

Saki loving her gift from Claudia 12-17-09

Just in time for the Thanksgiving Day holiday: I discovered today something I forgot. I filmed Saki in June. I'm afraid it's a bit dark, so you don't get the best view of her face, but her innate fluffiness is clear to view. Only watch with sound if you can stomach the voice of a fond human making inane chatter to her beloved cat. But if you don't turn up the sound you will miss the 3 absolutely adorable meows Saki makes in the the first half minute or so--the very best part of this 5 minute long vid of Saki cavorting on top of her cat tree and licking my hand while I pet her. The first meow is right after I first call her name, so listen for it, and the third meow is just a slight burble she makes after I imitate her second yeow, so you'll have to listen closely for it. (-:

NOTE: If the vid doesn't load right when you click on the below link, and gives you a message saying you can't watch it, click on the second (bottom) vid pic on the vid folder under it.

And now, for your holiday viewing pleasure:

Saki: The Movie!

ADDENDUM: Go here to see Saki: The Movie!
lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Nov. 18th, 2015 08:47 pm)
Missing my little spark plug. Saki was less interested in toys her last few months. But when I got home from the Laramie Moot, I gave her one of the puff balls [personal profile] hanarobi gave me, and she played with it for a couple of minutes--the last new toy to wrest any attention from her.



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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Nov. 18th, 2015 08:47 pm)
Missing my little spark plug. Saki was less interested in toys her last few months. But when I got home from the Laramie Moot, I gave her one of the puff balls [personal profile] hanarobi gave me, and she played with it for a couple of minutes--the last new toy to wrest any attention from her.



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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Nov. 8th, 2015 08:55 pm)
My beautiful girl with her little crossed paws, contemplative:



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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Nov. 4th, 2015 09:34 pm)
My Saki was just way too vital and vibrant and alert and clever and impish and beautiful and adorable and sparkling and just too plain crazy to be gone one month already from this world. Just look at that face all excited and inviting me to play with her in her watch tower in the sunroom:




A face impossible to resist. Bringer of perpetual kittenish antics, even when the equivalent of a human in her 80's.

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I came across this sweet song vid yesterday by Meghan Trainor, and I have to say I really did love my Saki like I was going to lose her and was often brought to tears by something sweet she would do. She came to me 4 years after I lost petite meezer Stormie terribly when she was only 9, and my world came crashing down. It did take a couple of years for me to stop comparing Saki with Stormie and fully love all her similar, but not quite the same ways, as well as her different ways. She got to live out the full lifespan Storm did not, and I was constantly aware of Saki's eventual loss, and fearing it. I thought in some ways it was a wounded way to love and a sign of my brokenness, but maybe it is just a way of maturely loving in full understanding of our mortality. I never took my Saki for granted, and am grateful for all the cherished moments, and I do not regret wasted time not loving her the best I could. But 4 weeks ago, I learned the real reason why Sunday nights are so sad.


My high spirited girl on her lookout tower, about to fling her toys about.

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Almost 4 weeks now without her. This morning while I was teleworking, Tuxie stared at me, looked over at one of Saki's beds, then back at me. I don't know if it was a question, a stating of fact, or an accusation about her absence. Poor baby. He and Moo have been cuddling with me on and off more today than in the past weeks when I teleworked.


These pics are from a couple of years ago. She looked so different from her earlier self the last few years, and I think her most beautiful. She'd get little dimples in those cheeks paralleling and a little below the flare of her nose when she was giving me her most loving looks--so adorable. She and I got closer after Milli died in 2007, the kitty who was here before her and became a big sister. After the initial disastrous introduction of Saki to Milli, and 5 weeks of very hard work, the 2 of them came to play very well together, though they never cuddled. And her hyperthyroidism and kidney disease and IBD, all the medicine treats and going to the vets I think made our bond even closer. She knew she was being taken care of and she returned that love tenfold.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Oct. 25th, 2015 09:29 pm)
Eternal Saki of the velvet nose, patch of flame, and the finest collection of thick whiskers.


So beloved. So missed.
lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Oct. 23rd, 2015 10:35 pm)
It's almost 3 weeks since I lost my beautiful girl. The first 2 weeks were definitely the worst with all the second guessing and self berating and pity of her passing--this week has been up and down but a little higher up the spiral of being able to accept her passing and just grieving and missing her. I had the pleasure of phone conversations with [personal profile] grey_wonderer and [personal profile] zlabya the past week and that helped immensely--thank you my friends. And thank you so much for all the support in wonderful comments you have all been giving me. I am very grateful to have you helping me get through my new life without my pirate, princess, and steel-driving cat with me.


For the last couple of years, Saki would more often than not sleep at night in her little bed next to my pillow. Often times when I'd reach over my hand, she'd wrap her paw around it or my wrist, or lay her head in my hand, or both. There was a time she used to sleep on my pillow around my head purring in winter--that was definitely before my hot flashes and my acquiring a chillow. Wherever she was, she always loved for me to lower my head so she could snuffle the very top of my head for a few moments, like Galadriel kissing Frodo's head.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Oct. 19th, 2015 09:33 pm)
Here's a set of pics of Saki having fun 2 years ago. Though she looked better the last several months having gained back a good 3 pounds and a much more enthusiastic appetite for treats, making her much more easy to medicate than the last couple of years, she lost a lot of her playfulness and enjoyment of toys. She did still enjoy jumping in her pirate ship, and being carried to her favorite lookout posts on her cat trees and being showered with fresh dried catnip, and would roll her head over purring, but she wasn't coming up with her own games as of yore. The hyperthyroidism itself, though, may have extended her youthful playfulness the last couple of years longer.

But new toys were always welcome, and some new catnip bags were just right.


Now this is good nip!


OMG--just taste this stuff!

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Oct. 15th, 2015 09:10 pm)
To comfort me, my talented friend of singing words [livejournal.com profile] jan_u_wine linked me to this verse from Omar Khayyam:

And fear not lest Existence closing your
Account, and mine, should lose, or know the like no more;
The Eternal Saki from the Bowl has pour'd
Millions of Bubbles like us, and will pour.




I did not take her name name from this verse naming Khayyim's cupbearer from The Rubiyat, and was not familiar with this verse. My Saki's name comes from the Japanese name Murasaki, the first name of the writer of The Tale of Genji. The name means "lavender" which is close to lilac, because I thought Saki was a lilac-point mix siamese, until [personal profile] delux_vivens convinced me Saki was a torti-point siamese, like her dear Nutmeg, a variety I was not aware of. I dream my friends Saki and Delux are finding comfort in each other--I hope Nutmeg doesn't mind.



[livejournal.com profile] jan_u_wine followed this verse with a poem it inspired from her pen/keyboard in honor of my Saki and to soothe my heart:

A POURING

A Pouring by Januwine and more Saki . . . )
Saki owned me. Here's how:


Excuse me, I want your attention.

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Saki owned me. Here's how:


Excuse me, I want your attention.

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lavendertook: close up of saki alert (Saki)
( Oct. 9th, 2015 06:54 pm)
I'm going to be posting some Saki spam probably quite a bit for a while. I have a ton of pics I've never posted to choose from, and then there are old favorites. The first 2 pics are the very last 2 I took. They were taken the same session as the last pic I posted of her a few days back--taken about 2 weeks ago. Once we found the tumor and were planning surgery I didn't want to waste any of her time with a camera as I understood the danger, and feared our time was numbered. This first one is out of focus, but still catches a look of her I loved.



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